Throughout my christian life, I’ve had different ideas about the Holy Spirit – and Jesus – and God. I have been hesitant to take that last toe out of Christianity and when I read the post, I discovered a piece of my puzzle:
If I let go, where do I stand?
I grew up indoctrinated that Jesus Is more real than I am – or should be (can you say enmeshed?), and that there was one right answer (from Jesus) for all the stuff: who do I marry? where should I go to school? what should I do with my life? what should we have for dinner? where should I buy it? which roads shouldIi take to get there?
“Believing in yourself” was sinful and dangerous – the road to all evil, which is why this quote from the Reason Rally posted, on devangelizeme.com struck me to the core:
“I have concluded through careful empirical analysis and much thought that somebody is looking out for me, keeping track of what I think about things, forgiving me when I do less than I ought. Giving me strength to shoot for more than I think I’m capable of. I believe they know everything that I do and think, and they still love me, and I’ve concluded, after careful consideration, that this person keeping score is me.”
(Adam Savage from Mythbusters speaking at the Reason Rally)